Happy December!



Holy heck...where did November go?! It's officially December 1, which means 24 days until I turn 25.  OH MY GOD.  I can not believe I have been on this planet for a 1/4 of a century and accomplished so little!  I remember when I was younger saying "I want to have my first kid at 25 and last one at 32" (mind you I wanted 4 children)....What the hell was I smoking at the age of 12? While I was thinking about the naive child I used to be, I was thrown into the present to think about the ALMOST 25 year old version of me and the future that will be the 50 year old version of me and God help those of you that are around to see the 50 year old version of me.

I am currently under the impression that I could use some botox or at the very least a chemical peel, I would love a boob lift and would be okay losing 35 lbs.  CAN YOU EVEN IMAGINE what I'm going to think about my 50 year old self?!

In the wake of all this thinking (anyone who knows me, knows I'm known to 'think to much'..haha, that sounded funny) I decided I'm making a 1/4 Century resolution.  This will be in effect from the age of 25 to 50 (this should be interesting considering I've kept ONE New Year Resolution in my entire life and it was to be nicer, which is clearly debatable).  I am going to live a healthier, happier life style and here are a few of the things I'm changing:

- I will not harp on the past.  My past is a part of me, but it doesn't define me.  I'm letting go of all of the negativity that surrounded me in my first 25 years of life.  I'm forgiving the bullies, the couple that used to make out at my locker in high school, the guy who rear-ended me (he was going 70 when I was stopped) on the NJTPK and left me on the side of the road in pain...in the pouring rain and I'm forgiving my family members who have done some pretty terrible things.

• I took the first step yesterday by erasing 31...that's right 30 freaking 1 phone numbers out of my phone.  They were ALL from online dating, or dates that never materialized or guys I know I'm better off without.  What I found funnier, is that I only know one 'Jason' (who happens to be my bff's husband) and there were 4 in my phone...all with different numbers and I don't remember ever talking to a 'Jason'...so look, I'm forgetting about the past already!

- I will live a healthier lifestyle. I am the first one to admit that I am a caffeine addict.  I drive through drive through's JUST for a medium diet coke and that's a problem.  My SF Red Bull addiction should also probably end and I think I could get rid of SOME coffee/tea...but let's not get carried away here, there's no way I could get rid of ALL coffee/tea, especially with the job I have.  This one also includes working out at least 4 days a week...NO EXCUSES.  If I have to run around the block, I'll run around the block...but if I can't run 10 miles now, there's no way I can run 10 miles 25 years from now.  Also, I can't wear bikini's when I'm 50...so I will have a bikini bod by May 28, 2012 (Memorial Day/A's Birthday).  Please note that this bikini bod will never be a 0/2, that's not genetically possible, but it could very well be a 8/10!

- I will handle whatever is thrown at me with dignity and grace. I have a temper, I yell and scream and cry.  I complain that things 'aren't fair' and often think 'what did I do to deserve this?'...but those thoughts are STOPPING.  God doesn't give you what you can't handle...and there's a reason he gives you the minutia he gives you.  I will not question what happens, I will not ask why, I will make lemonade out of lemons.

- I will smile more.  I smile a lot.  I like to smile.  But I'm going to smile more (fine lines be damned).  I think a smile can brighten up a day and if smiling at a stranger could make them feel better, then hell, I'm going to do it.

So there you have it...New 1/4 Century = New Me, but of course I still have 24 days to overdose on diet coke, sleep instead of go to the gym and scream/yell/cry as much as I want to :-)

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