In the last 24 hours, I’ve gone from being hopeful to being pissed off and I’m going to try to explain the logic to you at the risk of sounding insane. On Wednesday morning, I thought “Okay, it’s the middle of the week, golfer can still ask me out for Friday and it would be okay” but of course he didn’t. Last night after dinner, my thought process quickly changed to something like this: “Okay, well this is bullshit, I’m not texting someone all day when they’re bored at work just because I’m hysterical and it’s convenient for them. I’m not going to humor him anymore…I’m not on a dating website for friends, I have those. If he thinks I’m going to be his personal comedian, he’s sadly mistaken” Then it turned to “F this, I’m going back on the website and seeing what else is out there, there has to be SOMEONE else who would like to date me”. Once I got to the website I saw that golfer was ‘online now!’ and my thought became “I hate this website…It breeds insecurity. I don’t need to know that he’s on right now, AND texting me about hockey AND that he hasn’t looked at my profile recently” followed by “Oh hell no, I’m not being kept around in case his dates with other people don’t work out…that’s ridiculous…I’m better than that. AND His pictures don’t even look like him…he’s so much better looking in person, I wonder how many of them have seen him in person…I wonder what type of people are messaging him…Maybe I’m prettier, or funnier, or smarter or anything-er. Okay, I’m not texting him first, but if he texts me tomorrow, I’ll respond because I am still interested and I have to have something going for me that those other girls don’t.” Then I had a nightmare about being pat on the back…well not really, but I might as well have.
Ironically enough at 7:58am this morning, I got a text that said “I’m bored. Entertain me :-P” I responded 10 minutes later with “Someone’s demanding this morning” and proceeded to f*cking ‘entertain him’….UGH. After the standard daily B.S. that I have now participated in for well over a month I asked, “Any big weekend plans?” to which he responded “I’ve got nothing. Was going to ask this pretty girl out to dinner, but I completely spaced on it.” Followed by “Want to grab dinner this weekend?”
Now at the risk of sounding like the biggest nerd ever...I currently have a GIANT smile on my face.
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