Deuces!

Really?  Of all the things to say to me, Ed...THAT'S what you went with?!  You don't need to worry about it, because I won't be baking for you anytime soon.

With that said...I am officially done with Match.com! I had my last date last night (it was supposed to be Wednesday, but we had to reschedule). I sent him a text at about 6:45pm just asking if we were still on tonight (the date was for 7:30...I would've had to leave at 7) and he didn't respond.  I immediately started laughing because I thought being stood up would've been a perfect end to the ridiculous 6 months I subjected myself to.  I had some stuff to do (ie put gas in my car, stop at the ATM, etc) so I was somewhat dressed as I was running these errands.  At 7:25 he responds, "of course!  I'll be there in a few minutes...Call me when you get there"  Um, What?! I skipped the ATM and sped to the restaurant, only to find out that it wasn't where I thought it was and I was lost.  I called when I got there and he wasn't there yet, he was at Barnes and Noble reading...but came right over (those West Coast guys really are different than the New Jersey nonsense). He was adorable and very tall and smart...and he will make some girl very happy some day (this experience has at least taught me that if you have no expectations, you can't be let down).  

And finally, because I feel like Match has been such a big part of my life (and my blog) I decided to write a letter to Match.com to 'thank' it for everything it's done:

Dear Match.com,

The time has come to say our goodbyes.  We’ve had some good laughs (and cries) but I have to say I’m relieved to see you go. 

While you introduced me to people I would have never met on my own, you also introduced me to people I would have been okay never crossing paths with.  For instance, I could’ve done without the guy that stared at me through an entire drink, the guy who was obsessed with his Armani glasses and the guy who tried to guess my chest size via email. I also could have done without the let downs from the trickery of those that seemed ‘normal’ and the rejection from the guys I thought might like me.

The last 6 months or so have been a complete roller coaster and have honestly made me more self conscious then I have ever been in my life.  I was never afraid to ‘put myself out there’ and I was never afraid of rejection, but all of a sudden, those feelings were not only felt, but magnified.  When you talk to someone for weeks and believe you have a lot in common and that you genuinely like talking to each other and then you go to meet them in person and it’s a disaster, you really have no choice but to blame yourself.  When the guy doesn’t call you back after a first date, you feel like it’s no one’s fault but your own. No matter what anyone tries to tell you (“it’s his loss”, “you’re too pretty for him anyway”, “you couldn’t have worn heels”) it doesn’t take away the initial sting of feeling ‘unwanted’. I joked about Match a lot, but there were plenty of times I was joking about it because it was the only way I knew how to get through it.

Above all of the negative things I’ve felt and encountered from being on your site, I need to thank you.  Thank you for helping me realize that I’m not in a rush to settle down.  Thank you for helping me realize that I’m perfectly content waiting for the right guy, and most importantly, thank you for helping me realize that if Prince Charming doesn't show up, I have an amazing support system around me and I’ll be just fine on my own (with a dog of course).

Sincerely,

M