"Lonely, I'm so lonely" - Akon

I have been living in Miami for 19 days and I think I've cried 50% of those days.  Not because I'm sad, or I don't want to be here...I love my boyfriend and I think this is what I needed to do to make sure this is the relationship I want to be in for the rest of my life.  But I cry because I'm lonely;  I miss my mom, I miss my dog and I miss having friends and neighbors.  I go to the food store and Target once a day just to talk to the deli clerk and the checkout people (well I talk to the ones who understand English, which actually only encompasses 1/3 of the employees in these stores).  I even got a library card, just so I can go sit at the Kendall public library and hopefully meet a friend in the fiction section.  

I knew this would be a difficult experience for me, I just don't think I realized how difficult.  I feel like my support system that I've had for the last 26 years is so far away and the people I would vent to over a drink are non-existent anymore, the people who would tell me that these feelings are normal, and I'll find a job soon are MIA. There are people that were at my going away party who I haven't talked to in 3 weeks since the party.  And I don't know how to "build" a new support system and it's becoming extremely frustrating. I feel like it's only going to get worse when Ryan goes for his certification tests next week...then I'll really be alone. And it's hurricane season...this is a recipe for disaster.

Hope you're all having a fantastic Friday...since the sun is out, I might run over to the pool...by run I mean take a 1/2 hour to put on sunscreen, put on a bathing suit, grab a towel and grab a book just in time for one of the many daily FL downpours (can you tell this happens often?)